Refresh :)

I’ve been doing some subtle changes here and there.

            I changed my profile picture and cover photo on Facebook though it doesn’t really do me justice in ‘starting afresh’. It’s useless, I know, but somehow a part of me just wants to change it all so that it won’t remind me of what and who I had lost.

            A few days had passed since he left me. I’m just trying to live as usual, always keeping a happy face, smiling all the time and pretending like it all never happened. It’d be a lie if I say my mind doesn’t wander back to our memories, if my hands don’t itch to click that one button to view our pictures on the computer, if my heart doesn’t yearn for his presence.

            I really want to view our pictures but I’m afraid that the sight would bring a fresh wave of pain. I’m afraid that I would crumble down alone, with no one to help me get up again.

            I hear people say that the first cut is the deepest. This ‘cut’ is the third and I figured out it wouldn’t hurt much.

            Maybe that’s true… though it hurts just the same. Being broken up with by someone you love is not something that you can get used to no matter how many times you go through it. It hurts and it will always hurt.

            Though I believe myself to be fine without him, I still look for him wherever I go. I hope he would suddenly appear again even if I can only look at him from afar.

            I still wonder about him. Does he miss the one girl he left behind? Does he miss the talks we used to have? Does he miss the memories we created together and the moments we used to hold on to? Does he miss me at all?

I do feel lonely but I try to bask in the loneliness and do things I like – things which I had almost forgotten. I finished reading one of my favourite novels, I updated my book full of quotes, and I play around with my nephews and nieces as they say that kids are the natural entertainer for the heart.

I’m young and life out there has much, much, much more to offer. I’ll meet lots, lots, lots and lots of guys out there and I’ll find one in the crowd that deserves my love.

You know, Super Junior didn’t sing ‘Sexy, Free and Single’ for nothing! *wink* :)

I love you Alen Gwak

You know that sometimes you can feel separation hovering near, threatening to break you and your loved ones apart?

At least when it comes to that, you know what to expect though I don’t think it lessen the pain of being left alone after such a long time of being together with the one you dearly loved.

I envisioned our future together – not wedding bells, wedding dresses or a bungalow for me to live with him and our kids but rather just the day after today. I had hopes and expectations for the time to come up till the time he left.

Every relationship would hit a rocky patch once in a while and mine was no different. What I thought to be such a minor mistake on my part turned out to be such a huge wound to him that he left.

Yes, he left.

He left without saying goodbye.

What hurts is the fact that there were no last words, no goodbye, nothing to signal that he was about to leave. My hope to smooth out our misunderstanding was crushed as soon as I realised that he had left. I searched high and low but he was nowhere to be found.

His absence left a gaping hole that throbbed, like someone had just ripped my heart out of my chest. The emptiness yawned widely inside but I’m unable to find something or someone that can cover the void in my life.

I wonder what he felt the moment he left me. Glad, perhaps? – Glad that he could get rid of me at last? Hurt? Guilt?

I didn’t think that I was ready to live without him, to let him go. If I’d been standing, I would’ve staggered backward to learn that he’s gone. The shock and surprise was so sudden.

The only thing he left was a thousand memories I can’t forget. The mind is like a sieve, so I shouldn’t need to worry much, right? Time will wipe out all the memories so that nothing could be left behind, right? But sometimes, there are just some things that got stuck in the mind, unable to be peeled off and discarded.

I listen to songs – sad love ballads mostly – before I go to sleep, hoping it can soothe my aching heart. I let our memories play in my head – not because I want to add to the mountain of pain in my heart, but rather remembering is the only way of forgetting for me. I let the tears fall along with the rain that pelts on my windows on the rare occasion when the summer storm decides to pay a visit.

I don’t know if he reads this but if he does, then I would like to apologize to him for hurting him, and I want him to know that I never meant to hurt him for how could I inflict such pain on someone I love? And… I just want to let him know I still love him and I would gladly accept him back into my arms if he ever decides to come back.

I love you, Alen, and I still need you.

You and I

Life is very surprising.

I think I have just learned it.

You remember Min Jun? You know, the guy I can’t seem to stop talking about? The one who makes me laugh and cry? The one that I love?

Now you get the picture.

I’ve been wanting to tell the world about this for quite some time but things just got in the way.  I was quite busy these past few months and still am. It is hard to find some time to write but as it is, I try to push a few things away and here I am, typing away for this blog.

Back to the story I wanted to tell you about.

Min Jun came back and we got back together after a while. We are about two months into the relationship and I am very happy to have him back in my life. I really can’t get away from him, can I?

We had celebrated our 1^st and 2^nd month anniversary together, leaving me a memory I don’t think I can ever forget in a million years.

I just want time to stop when we’re together so that I can be with him forever and never have to let him go. He makes me smile and blow away all my fears and tears and for that, I am thankful to have met him.

I can’t remember a life before him, a life so dull like I’m seeing the world in black and white. He brought colours back into my life and makes me see the little things I never noticed and the hidden beauty in everything.

I don’t think I can write enough about him. For those who have been in love, you know what it feels like when that special someone makes your life so perfect you just don’t have the words to describe it. Well, Min Jun is that special someone in my life and words just don’t do him justice.

Min Jun, I love you Jambu Monkey. May we stay together for ever.

Our second anniversary together. ♥ 

Lonely Without You

I am alone.

But being alone is not the same as being lonely.

There are times when I want to ask him to come back but my pride holds me back each time. For that, I’m glad because if he left once, the he’ll leave again. Soon.

I know better than to sit around and wait for someone who wouldn’t come. He is far away now – in my mind’s eye. I need to pick up the thread of my life, pick up from where he left me and start again from scratch. I should not be sad. After all, this isn’t the first time.

First time?

I was wrong. This is the first time – that he left me.

Whenever I hear the song that we used to listen to, I wonder if he’s listening to the same song or if he even remembers how special this song was to us. How special this song IS to me.

Whenever I see a couple walking down the street with their hands intertwined together, I wonder if he still remembers the times we used to do just that. I wonder if he remembers how it was when I put my hand in his or when I look into his eyes and told him I love him. I wonder.

Whenever I came across our pictures, I wonder if he still keeps them. Has he thrown away our pictures? Has he burned them? What about my gifts? Does he still have it? Or did he pack it for Goodwill? Has he thrown away or burned everything? Did he do that to our memories, too?

It’s so hard to walk away and it’s so hard to explain this feeling. I remember him, because everything that had happened is still new. I still remember it with perfect clarity, to the point where it hurts.

Breaking up with him feels so wrong but I was wronged and it was the only right thing to do. Because there is no girl in this world who wants to be cheated on.

We're Through

People change all the time. People move forward and they don’t turn back to mourn for what they have left behind and lost. They don’t usually do that.

Because to move forward, you have to look ahead and forget what’s behind you.

Because that’s the only rule of surviving. Ever.

But I didn’t do anything and he left me. I repeat: HE LEFT ME.

He changed in a blink of an eye. He changed just like that. We were so in love and we got over so many things, and for once, I was the one trying to hold on to our relationship even when I knew it was slipping away and the rug is going to be pulled out from underneath me in no time at all but I stayed.

Because I have faith in him.

Because I have faith in us.

The way he talked to me was different. When I was the one who left him, he still talked to me in that soft, irresistible voice and there wasn’t a hint of hate or anger at all when he should be. He never raised his voice. He never yelled at me. He never hurt me… real bad.

But now he had. Because there is apparently someone better for him out there – someone better for him when we were really doing okay, when things could’ve ended happily.

Where was she – or any other girl, for that matter – when I needed her to be with him? When I left him and saw what a mess he had become, all I wanted was for him to have someone other than me to love and to lean on. He didn’t find her.

How ironic that he had found the ‘perfect girl ever’ when I had willingly stayed by his side and picked off where we left off and started a whole new chapter for us. It’s as if fate’s trying to get me. Well, FATE certainly had done its job.

And I thought I could never be more hurt than when Min Jun left me.

What sliced through my already broken heart is the realisation that he will never be the same. The understanding we have, the perfect chemistry between us – he pretends to not know any of it. Where once we couldn’t help but understand each other, now he pretends to not understand what I’m saying but I know that he understands it perfectly, even if I don’t say it out loud. Because the mutual understanding we couldn’t help but have is not something that can go away when something breaks into pieces.

I don’t think it will go away.

Right now, it feels like we are both trying to act like we don’t know each other and act like strangers in one room when we know exactly what the other party is thinking. That hurts. I have to pretend to not know any of it. I have to pretend that I have lost it all, when in fact, it is not something that can disappear just like that.

Back to LOVE

It has been a long time since I've written last in here. I missed it but I was too busy with life.

Everybody keeps on talking about Valentines.

Why should I do the same?

Kidding!

Whoever has read my blog would know that I've broken up with Min Jun a while ago. It's going to be a year this 2012. I've never remembered it again but that doesn't mean I have forgotten all about it.

As I searched for Min Jun's picture, something suddenly struck my heart. I don't know what it is... but I guess looking at his face again brought back the memories.

I'm happy to say that I've once again found happiness in someone. He loves me - he says so. We've been together since literally forever. I left him countless times already but we keep on bouncing back to each other. Maybe it is fate. 

His name is Lee Do Hyeong, though I call him Dong Jun because I like that name better. I refused to get back with him after we broke up - not because I didn't love him but because I wanted to find someone else... someone who I think might suits me best but as the saying goes WHILE YOU GO SEARCHING FOR THE BEST, THE BEST FOUND BETTER. I figure that Dong Jun might be the best for me... at this moment.

What brought us together again was... PARIS.

 Just a couple of pics I have here. 

How can you love someone who has hurt you countless time? How can you stand being with that person, without the fear that he or she wouldn't leave you again.

Well, this special guy did just that: HE LOVES ME MORE THAN I DESERVED TO BE LOVED.

 So since today is his birthday, I figured I should give him one of the sweet selcas I have since we're living far away from each other.

Presents can come later. *wink*

Right now I wish for nothing much in life but for happiness.

I just go with the flow nowadays and I try to make the best of everything in my life so that I wouldn't have anything to regret someday.

Happy 2012!!!

Wish You're Here

I know. I know. I know.
I know I broke off with Min Jun. I don't miss him. But I miss the time I spent with him.
I fell in love again. That love hurts so much. All I could think right now is: If Min Jun is here with me, I wouldn't have gotten hurt this way. 


Life is really ironic. One day, you're all crazy about him and then you swore you don't even like him after he did some shit to you and then you broke down the next day, swearing that you've liked him all these times even when he hurt you so much.
I told you already, LIFE IS IRONIC.


There's a song that I love to listen to.
It's a very nice song which expresses all the feelings bottles up inside me.

Yes, I wanna be lost in love.

Yes, I wanna be your dream come true.

Yes, I want you to call me beautiful.

Yes, I want you to love me.

No, I don't want you to leave me.

The Turns Life Takes

In life, many things happens. Things you don't even predict would happen sometimes just happens.

You think you are in love, but sometimes it turns out that you are wrong.

Relationships that you thought would last - be it a relationship with a boyfriend, or best friend - sometimes breaks off in the middle of the journey. 

Sometimes there are just nothing you can do to change some things.

I was still chasing after Min Jun after we broke off. Well, not exactly chasing, but hoping. I thought I would get better as time passed but somehow, my heart didn't want to let him go.

I kept hoping that he would come back... even if it's not back to me. His presence is enough to make me smile even as my heart ached inside.

He did come back. He came back to warn me off; he wanted me to stop pinning after him, and he sent me a message asking me to move on and forget about him as I deserve better. He wanted us to be back to how we were before: strangers.

Seems like he's getting cuter.

It seems that after he 'slapped' me, I am able to move on. In fact, I am having a crush on someone else right now. This new guy is totally different from my ex. This new guy makes me smile, and makes a garden bloom in my heart. I feel happy again after such a long time of misery.

Nothing is happening between us, and I doubt anything will happen. He and I are a world apart.

There are lessons to be learned from all that we had been through in life.

I don't look for love anymore, not really, and I don't run after love. I just let it happen naturally.

Love just happens... that is why it is called Falling In Love.

Right now, I just wanna be with someone who loves me for who I am, who accepts me for who I am... I just want to be with someone who deserves my love.

LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.

No More Try, You and I

Gwak Min Jun

I came back to tell you to stop thinking of me and move on. I don't want you to bother Hwae Ji anymore, not that she said that, I just felt that way. so please, forget everything about me. I know you deserve better. I've moved on and I'm happy and I hope you will do so too. we can never get back together, ok? I'll deactivate this for good and I won't come back anymore. you can bad mouth me all you want, if it makes you feel better. I'm deeply sorry for everything and I hope that you can forgive me and go back to where we were before, strangers. thats all. I'm sorry.

 ·  · See Friendship · 21 hours ago


What he sent to me via Facebook.

What I sent to him:

Kim Hyun Jae

‎Gwak Min Jun Know this one thing before I tell you the rest: I ask Hwae Ji about you NOT because I want to get back with you, but it's just that I care, and honestly I missed you.
I am trying very hard to move on and I am moving on actually~ Maybe I'm not 100% better but I'm getting there. There's no problem about being strangers again, because in a way, we have always been strangers. I don't want us to end on a bad note this time, OK? I mean, let's end it in a good way. I am sorry for all I've done. Goodbye.Thanks a lot Jambu =)

 ·  · 11 minutes ago




God knows it actually hurts.
Thanks a lot Min Jun. I guess this is the eternal end of you and me.

No more try you and I. Thanks a lot.

FINAL: LIKE A MOVIE

It's over now. I have learn to accept the fact that it's over.
It shouldn't hurt now, not when time had passed. I should feel better, not like how I am feeling right now.
I miss him... a bit. I miss our times.
Yesterday, I saw someone that looks 90% like him.
 I thought perhaps that could be a sign for us to get back together. I was wrong. EVERYTHING IS FINAL NOW

I can't help but put the memories on rewind, playing it over and over in my head. Just like a movie.

THE END

16^th June 2011

I broke up with him.

It was my decision to end things with him because I was tired of all of this. I was tired of waiting for him when it seems like he’d never come back. I was tired of loving him when he would never love me… or so it seemed.

After the fight we had, he somehow… changed. No more love wall posts, no more talking about me on his status. I know that these reasons are really stupid, but these little things hurt.

I promised myself that I wouldn’t end things with him this time around, but I did anyway. I didn’t think I can wait anymore. I was tired of waiting, hoping for something that would never happen. I wasn’t really planning to break up with him, even though that thought had been nagging my mind for some times. It was just… something I did on the spot.

I gave it some thought and figured that if I would be kept waiting in the dark, and that we didn’t really know each other, and it’s a fact that we wouldn’t last, so why waste the precious time? I should let him go so he can find someone better than me, someone that can love him in a way I never could. I couldn’t help but ask myself… ‘What have I done?’, ‘Did I really break up with him?’ and that kind of questions. I didn’t care anymore, and I don’t think the world cares, so why not get on with it?

I did like him but everything I did felt more like obligations than tasks that I would do because I love him. I felt trapped. I felt lonely… like I was single. I thought, ‘If I feel like I’m single, then why don’t I get on with it and be single for real?’ Then it wouldn’t hurt for me to do anything a girlfriend just can’t do.

I walked around just to come full circle, right at the beginning. Now that I’ve let him go sincerely, I feel calm… happy, almost. It didn’t hurt like I thought it would, but maybe that was because the love is gone. It doesn’t matter; a love from him can be replaced with many other. There are other fishes in the sea that would suit me best. It amazes me how happy, and calm… and free I feel. I don’t have to think of him anymore.

I thank him for the memories, and everything he had said to make me happy. I thank him for everything he did.

It’s not you, Min Jun. It’s just me. It’s not what you did but what you didn’t do. It wasn’t your fault that everything has to end this way. I’m sorry that our love story has to end this way. I want you to know that I’ve never lied about my love for you, not even once. I loved you for real. I’m sorry for hurting you but I am hurting, too. Thank you so much for the memories. Live happily, Min Jun. You deserve happiness. You belong together with Hwae Ji and maybe that’s one of the reasons why we can never last. We’re just not made for each other.

Love, Kim Ji Young

Don’t cry because it’s over; smile because it happened.

Bye bye Min Jun.

I love you.

Not gonna....?

12^th June 2011

Well, oh well, turned out I wasn’t going to break up with him!

Life is just too surprising sometimes…

Anyway, I am quite happy that I did not break up with him… yet. I know I can’t let him go yet. I have to get things in check though. I need to save money, and that means LESS or NO trips to the Internet Café. But… I have to keep my relationship in check, too.

I don’t want him to get mad at me… but at the same time I can’t be ‘there’ for him every day. I guess I just have to talk things through with him. I don’t know… somehow I was relieved that I am still his girlfriend, but at the same time, it just… I don’t know. It sucks, I guess, because I feel OBLIGED to do this and that just FOR HIM. Tell me, is it worth it?

I want to take a break from all these things but how can I? I mean, not with him around. I love him, alright. I think I do.

Anyway, it’s going to hurt when everything ends… it’s going to hurt so much I might want to… to… to… scream and run and… and… and not think about anything at all(I am trying not to exaggerate here…). 

I don’t know what to say… or what to do.

Of all the things he wrote, only one sentence stuck in my mind.

“Let’s take a break.” Oh God, what could that mean? Was he asking for a break up?

I did not log on to Facebook for a week, and my mind and my heart had been in turmoil. I kept wondering what he’d say to me… I missed him so much it actually hurts.

Honestly, I do not expect to spend the rest of my life with him but I do not want to leave him either. He’s the one I think about most of the time.

When I did log on to Facebook and saw those words, my heart just… I don’t know? Break? I feel something deep in my bone marrow, and it made me worry. I went to my tuition but I could hardly concentrate. I kept pondering over what he wrote and I couldn’t imagine how my life would be without him…

He used to love me so much… at least that was how it seemed like but now… it seems like everything’s… GONE. I kept writing on his wall, telling him how much I love him, and not just once, or twice… but lots of times since I’m going to be offline for a long, long time. Guess what I got? He just commented on a wall post and to hell with the rest. There’s not even one post from him on my Facebook wall…

Maybe this is a sign that he doesn’t love me anymore… right?

It seems like there wasn’t even a moment of peace after I read his comment. I came home from class and eat my late night dinner silently. I did not talk to either my sister or brother. God, I feel so… down. I didn’t even care about the 2011 Dream Concert at all (I wanted to watch that concert so much since I’m a big fan of KPOP and most idols are going to perform).

I practically forced myself to watch the concert so that I can sleep with happy thoughts for the night. It was hard to concentrate on what I was watching and listening to. My heart hurts so much, my head kept spinning round and round and I couldn’t stop worrying about what would happen to us.

The concert did cheer me up a bit. I wasn’t ready to sleep yet, because I wasn’t feeling good yet so I watched a funny episode of ‘2 Days and 1 Night’. Man, it was funny and I had a good laugh!

I went to sleep with a happy heart that night. I pushed all the nagging thoughts out of my mind and decided I wouldn’t care about any of those crap.

The next day, I log on to Facebook again but I didn’t receive any reply from him… yet. Ok then, I’ll keep on waiting.

I checked my friends’ wall, and it hurts so much to see that he could write on someone else’s wall, but how could he not write on mine? I mean, I’m his girlfriend… shouldn’t he at least say something?

Gosh, is he asking for a break up? Is he SILENTLY asking for a break up? That thought hurts.

I should’ve known it would turn out like this. I know we would end one day, but please, please, not now. I don’t know why, but I’m not ready to let him go… Not yet. I know I’ve hurt him, but I’m hurting, too. Why couldn’t he see that?

I think the best thing to do is let him go but since I’m not ready, I’ll just keep holding on… to… this relationship. I have to admit, I think I’m holding on by a thread. I think it wouldn’t be long until I fall.

I think a break up is not something you could… ever be prepared for… I mean, not for real, I guess. I don’t know. I’m talking crap now.

Whatever happens… I’ll just… keep holding on, I suppose. I mean, this is not the end of life, right? So, it doesn’t really matter. I’ll just… keep holding on. =)

Written on:

11^th June 2011

Lonely~

I miss him terribly when he's not with me.

I always wonder what he's up to, and what it would feel like to be with him.

Many a times I wanted to shout at him, and make him see how lonely I am, despite all that he had said about how much he loved me.

I hope it's not lies that comes out of his mouth.

I like being with him, it makes me feel so special... or maybe that's just the effect of growing up without a real dad to shower me with love that comes from the other sex. 

I wouldn't blame Min Jun because I'm afraid I'd lose him. I love him so much it sometimes hurts. I don't dare tell him if I am mad at him, or even 'shout' at him because I'm afraid we'll only end just the way we did before I found this happiness again. I'm not going to let my selfishness ruin my love.

I try to understand Min Jun, because I know he's awfully busy with his thriving business, just like I am sometimes busy with my studies.

Min Jun, I am sorry to have caused you any pain at all.

I don't want you to feel guilty.

Go on, and get as busy as you can for your future, but just don't ever forget about me.

I'll always be waiting for you honey.

I love you from the bottom of my heart.

My sweet Min Jun.

How can I hurt him just one bit?

I cannot hurt him.

Oh, how could I?

Baby, I'm sorry. At times I may be lonely, but I understand.

Be the brightest star in the world.

Shine brightly, make me proud.

I love you so much nothing would matter but YOU!

***

I'm just another girl  that you can replace with the blink of an eye.

Because of that, I shouldn't be afraid of what would happen to you when I'm not by your side anymore.

***

I love you.

Back to You~

Back to him...
Back to YOU!!!

Gwak Min Jun April 19 at 7:24pm Report

Hey. I will be away for a week for a shoot and I just want to tell u that I can't let go of you. I still miss you dearly. I realise that the person I love is you. All these time I've been pretending to love hwae ji. I can't tell u how sad am I when I know you want to break up with me. Being the hot tempered me, I missed my one only chance to be back with you. You were never my experiment. After all the girls, you have been the most realistic one. Makes me realise that I Can love someone from another place. And you're beautiful, Shahirah. I hope I spelt it correctly. Never have I saw a girl with such strong personality. We can be together again, forget our past. Im not forcing you. If you don't feel like it, I Can disappear and you'll never see me. Im so pathetic writing this during a five minutes break on my phone. I should be more sincere but I can't resist losing you again.

Hope to hear from you soon. You're forever in my heart. Take care, don't catch a cold.

Your jambu monkey. :)

This is what he sent me just so he could get back with me.

Tell me, which girl wouldn't be touched by this kind of action?If she's not, then maybe she's not a girl after all.

He apologized or hurting me before, and I thought NO! I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE A BASTARD LIKE HIM!

Well, what do you know?

I've fallen in love more than one more time, or so it seems, so I am completely vulnerable to another loving attack.

So, I love him...

I love my Min Jun...

Better together?

So, me and Min Jun...
we're back~
So what? I love him.
I'm happy now with him by my side...

My Min Jun makes my heart beats faster..
He makes me smile when I feel down...
He's everything I ever wanted...
I love him..

Me and Min Jun together, hopefully forever :)

You never loved me?

Do you know that i can't sleep and i end up drinking till late at night until a passed out? Do you know because of you i was late for work and i almost got fired? Do you know you made my life so miserable because i love you so much. I think about you all the time. And now, you're thinking that i'm not happy with you? Seriously?- what he said to me a looong time ago~


Seriously,how can he lie to me?How can he say that I'm only his experiment?
Has he never loved me at all?
Is it true?
Then,what's all this?


I still love him it hurts...
My heart is writhing in pain inside my ribcage every time I think of him.
It hurts but I can't help it so I just have to endure it...

My Best Friend

Even though we argued a little yesterday
Today, we laugh and hug, embrace each other
Alright. Let’s make a promise
You are my best friend


Even if your worry may seem trivial
Don’t hold it in
But share it with each other. Promise me one more time


 When you laugh, I’m happy too
When you’re sad, my eyes tear up.


 I’ll be your strength
I’ll always by your best friend


If you find a good movie, a song,
Or a person(guy), make sure to let share it with each other
Let’s make a promise together


Let’s not be stingy and
Buy each other meals
Let’s make a promise with our finger


 For me, when you’re not here, I really feel lonely
 For me, when you’re sick, I can’t sleep. I worry about you


With faith and holding hands, no matter what I won’t be afraid
 The word friendship may sound awkward, but I think that word was created
To describe us.
 my friend


We make pretty nicknames for each other and play around
Sometimes, we share our cool clothes
You’re number one in my speed dial.
You’ll always be my best friend
Forever you’re my friend
You’re my only one, my friend




There is only one of you in this world my friend
You’re my joy and my soul
I’ll continue to treasure our importance
I swear to God
I love you my friend
You’re my life’s present my friend
You’re my jewel. My miracle
I’ll protect my appreciative heart
Once again, I swear to God
I love you my friend

TO MY DEAREST FRIENDS,ESPECIALLY YUMI AND ZETTY AND RAZILA  AND AFFIQAH AND ROSILA...
YOU GUYS ARE ONE IN A MILLION AND I CAN NEVER FIND ANOTHER YOU...
SARANGHAEYO~
AISHETERU~
I LOVE YOU~
AKU SAYANG KAU~


I will never ever forget the times where we walked in the baking heat and ran in the heavy rain and eat hot waffles at Maxim's... Those memories are precious... There's no way to turn back time or to repeat all of it again~
I'll keep the memories always... I will never forget, my dear friends~
Remember that I'll always be here for you~
I know this isn't much but I just want you to know that I love you guys beyond belief and no words or actions can describe how I feel...
Do not forget me because I will never ever forget about all of you-no,not today,tomorrow or forever...
Go and make your dreams come true,friends~
I'll be there watching you reach your dreams high up in the air,I'll be watching you guys become the brightest star in the galaxy...
Remember that I love you forever and always~

OUR MEMORIES WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN...
FOREVER AND ALWAYS~