It's a link to the latest song of 2NE1...the song is really great.it gives me spirit and it'll totally go into my MP3!!!
This song touches my heart and it reminds me of someone who had been so special in my life before and no.he's not family~
I wouldn't tell what happened or how it happened but just enough to say that he was the first one in my life~
I believe in the power of love and I believe in 1st love but I never thought it can happen to anyone at such a young age but it happens and I'm just one of the victims...
I thought I was over him but guess what? I tracked him down on Facebook and I added him.I become his friend without him knowing it is me(I hope he doesn't know.I don't want him to know...)
You see,I did something so horrible and bad and shameful and it caused me a great deal of pain till I feel like it's really hard to breathe...and I can't talk about it without feeling the pain and regret. The scar left a thousand bittersweet memories~
I thought I am over him but I was wrong.Somehow,I still like him.Not waiting,but watching,wanting to know if he's happy.I talked this over with a good friend of mine and she confirms that I am still in love with him.Or,I still love him.
I don't want to love him anymore...I want to be free of him...I don't want to walk under his shadows anymore...I want to like someone else as much as I like him but I can't seem to find that other guy...I wonder why?Oh yeah,because I still live under his shadows which is really disappointing. I want to break free~
I wonder if loving him is a mistake?He made me feel like never before and I really like that.It's hard for me to say that it's a mistake but I think that's what it is-a mistake.
A mistake then...but I'll keep thinking, and until then,I'll keep on living as usual. I just hope it won't be under his shadows anymore~
Annyeong~
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