You never loved me?

Do you know that i can't sleep and i end up drinking till late at night until a passed out? Do you know because of you i was late for work and i almost got fired? Do you know you made my life so miserable because i love you so much. I think about you all the time. And now, you're thinking that i'm not happy with you? Seriously?- what he said to me a looong time ago~


Seriously,how can he lie to me?How can he say that I'm only his experiment?
Has he never loved me at all?
Is it true?
Then,what's all this?


I still love him it hurts...
My heart is writhing in pain inside my ribcage every time I think of him.
It hurts but I can't help it so I just have to endure it...

My Best Friend

Even though we argued a little yesterday
Today, we laugh and hug, embrace each other
Alright. Let’s make a promise
You are my best friend


Even if your worry may seem trivial
Don’t hold it in
But share it with each other. Promise me one more time


 When you laugh, I’m happy too
When you’re sad, my eyes tear up.


 I’ll be your strength
I’ll always by your best friend


If you find a good movie, a song,
Or a person(guy), make sure to let share it with each other
Let’s make a promise together


Let’s not be stingy and
Buy each other meals
Let’s make a promise with our finger


 For me, when you’re not here, I really feel lonely
 For me, when you’re sick, I can’t sleep. I worry about you


With faith and holding hands, no matter what I won’t be afraid
 The word friendship may sound awkward, but I think that word was created
To describe us.
 my friend


We make pretty nicknames for each other and play around
Sometimes, we share our cool clothes
You’re number one in my speed dial.
You’ll always be my best friend
Forever you’re my friend
You’re my only one, my friend




There is only one of you in this world my friend
You’re my joy and my soul
I’ll continue to treasure our importance
I swear to God
I love you my friend
You’re my life’s present my friend
You’re my jewel. My miracle
I’ll protect my appreciative heart
Once again, I swear to God
I love you my friend

TO MY DEAREST FRIENDS,ESPECIALLY YUMI AND ZETTY AND RAZILA  AND AFFIQAH AND ROSILA...
YOU GUYS ARE ONE IN A MILLION AND I CAN NEVER FIND ANOTHER YOU...
SARANGHAEYO~
AISHETERU~
I LOVE YOU~
AKU SAYANG KAU~


I will never ever forget the times where we walked in the baking heat and ran in the heavy rain and eat hot waffles at Maxim's... Those memories are precious... There's no way to turn back time or to repeat all of it again~
I'll keep the memories always... I will never forget, my dear friends~
Remember that I'll always be here for you~
I know this isn't much but I just want you to know that I love you guys beyond belief and no words or actions can describe how I feel...
Do not forget me because I will never ever forget about all of you-no,not today,tomorrow or forever...
Go and make your dreams come true,friends~
I'll be there watching you reach your dreams high up in the air,I'll be watching you guys become the brightest star in the galaxy...
Remember that I love you forever and always~

OUR MEMORIES WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN...
FOREVER AND ALWAYS~

Why am I still hurting now?

I don't really understand what's happening to me...
I don't know why I'm feeling very very very hurt...
I just saw that he was 'engaged' to his new girl...
I could feel the unshed tears burning in the back of my eyes,waiting for the right time to come out but I kept myself in check and held back the tears..
No,I wouldn't let it come out...
I wonder why I'd cry for just that little thing?Perhaps I still love him?
I don't want to believe that I do but if I really do,then I just have to come to terms with it...
I wonder when this pain will end because I just don't know how long I can bear with it~
Rest in peace,my little heart~
I hope I wouldn't break you anymore~
I should just let him live his life..
If I do love him,then I should just back off completely and let him be happy~

Since that's what love is all about- sacrificing for others~

Love is all gone now...

Love is all gone now...but that doesn't mean I forget everything for I haven't forgotten.
He has a girlfriend now and I'm all alone...but it's okay.
I just don't want to be an 'experiment' to him anymore.I am human; not a lab rat.
How can he say that he never treated me as his girlfriend?then what's with all the 'I LOVE YOU' he posted on my facebook wall? How could he?
It's not that I love him beyond belief but it still hurts till my tears hit the ground.
Gwak Min Jun,I don't know who the hell you are but you have broken my heart and you have mocked me so hard...you have abused me emotionally and you have ruined my life. I still love you...and I don't even know why...
Annyeong Min Jun,you have blocked me altogether from your life. You don't keep even a bit of our memories...but it's OK...i'm going to get a proper burial site for it and I'm going ti visit it alone...
To all my friends that have helped me through one of the darkest moments of my life,all I want to say is jeongmal Gumawo!
Thank you so much~
Sarangaheyo~
I love you~


I'm like a bird stuck in sticky web of love...

 and no more love for the time being please...